Dafina Everhart and Nicole Griffin
Monday July 8, 2013 at 7:30 PM
1719 25th Street
Host: Emmanuel Sigauke
Dafina Everhart is originally from the city of San Jose. Her poetic influences are Sarah McKay, Marshall Davis and Rudy Francisco. She has performed at Mahogany’s, Time Tested Book, and at Luna’s.
Selfish Lover
Sometimes at night I want to whisper the truth in your ear.
“You’re not as big as you think you are…”
Your quantity has no quality.
When you heard me scream, it was for my soul to come back.
Because it left as soon as you entered.
Drenched and dripping in a pool of your own arrogance.
The room fills with the stench of your self confidence.
I regurgitate a smile to stroke your ego.
“You’re so easy…”
You could squeeze yourself into the smallest space, and brag how you are the biggest thing in the room.
Hearing your interjections as I share my thoughts with you.
Remind me of how you sloppily pound an ignorant erection, into and innocent mouth that told you her dreams.
Spewing your opinion all over a hopefulness, that you were worth talking too.
Contorting yourself into oral satisfaction, by the sound of your own voice.
Animals hunched up on each others backs.
Recreating themselves in a random parking lot, where no one cares…
Have more meaning to life than you would ever be able to contemplate.
Your perception of being a man is so diluted.
You take double sided words and puff them into a smoke of insults, that linger in my mind and haunt myself confidence later.
I know that it makes you feel big, I guess you need the inches…
I think you carry necrophilia like a std, because you amplify a nothingness inside when you touch me.
You mooch off the naivety of what love is and destroy its purity.
How did I get this far to know who you really are?
There is a orbit around you that I got caught up in.
I’m embarrassed to have been your fool.
The chances I’ve given you have reached there expiration, molding into a penicillin that cures me from believing in you.
I have learned from this experience, So I do thank you.
Thank you for making me better, better than you!
Nicole Griffin is a writer and social activist living and loving in Oakland by way of Sacramento. She earned an MFA in Creative Writing/Poetry at Mills College in Oakland last spring and completed June Jordan’s Student-Teacher-Poet program, Poetry for the People at UC Berkeley. Her poems have appeared in the anthology, What I Want from You, The Walrus and The Womanist. She is currently working on her first book of poems, entitled, The Body Remembers.
